Benefit

We dont need to feel we are so hypocrite for being a 'Friends with Benefit'. Basically our life is about taking benefit from other people, cause we are created as social human beings. Which we need people for some helps, to work with, to share with, to hug with, to talk with, to laugh with, and many things. Benefits could be anything. Well for the simplest example, like when you need to know something such an answer, or advices, or whatever you want to know, then you start to ask your friend for the question and they help you with some answers or advice. I sure as long as we live we will always and have to take a benefit from other humans for keeping us alive.

Few days ago I did movie-marathon like usual, I watched Mistress America. This movie tells about sisterhood-relation, a teenage girl with older woman who become a new best friend and soon to be a step-sister. The older (Brook) has a good, glamor, and fancy life with a lot of friends but she was also a sweet and kind, and all the thing she did make the girl (Tracy Fishko) love her so much as a big sister. They getting to know each other, sharing life story, giving advices, they love each other like a real sibling. Tracy get interest and try to write a story about Brook (but it was like the other side of being Brook) and sooner Brook know that Tracy is taking advantage from her by writings her life story which is it tells the bad side of Brook. *I'm not good being a story teller, better watch the movie your self*.

Doc.Now!

I have just compeleted the one-tiring-week-challange. I was selected as one of the 18 workshop participants, Doc.Now! by Kelas Pagi Yogyakarta with six internazionale-level mentors. Such a prestige moment. Every workshop that I ever joined always give me another experience. Meet new people with different backgrounds, stories, ways of thinking, and jokes where it was very enjoyable. And it all made me realized that people are too smart and brainy, which I'm so shallow and toooooo one-sided-perpective person. Oh dear. During this holiday I had less time to play and made some interact with people. I'm a person with negative energy. I'm so busy with my self watching movies. Geez. So join the workshop was just my another refreshing-but-not-that-fresh moment. I grouped with five others and mentored by Mas Rony Zakaria and Mas Michael Eko. They both just cool, and plus they are photographer for National Geographic. How lucky!

My new friends, Kya. She's from Malang, and she's a veterinary student, but she has more interest at photography which is cool. Also she made her photo-project with camera analog. Double cool. Then there is Tyo, my friend from Jakarta. We met at another workshop, Kota Tua by Erasmus Huis. And we met again here, he made a photo project about abdi dalem Kraton. 

We were talking a lot. Mas Sapta from Jakarta showed us his photobook project that he made with his girlfriend when they were on holiday in Khatmandu (kalo ga salah). All the photos are taken by analog cameras (hasselblad and I dont know the others) and he told us that they brought a lot roll films, bw and color. Then, there is Mas Aji that sharing his stories about his experiences when he made a photo project in Cambodia, he got the opportunity to attend the prestigious Angkor Photo Workshop with Mas Ben and Tante Ocha. 

Reddish and Bloomy

32/366. Monday. First day of February.

It takes so long to feel this way, feeling greatful for being myself. Everyone has plus and minus, positive and negative, good and bad, white and black. Even me. I may not good at some points, but I sure I have other abilities that everyone hasn't. Before it, I might too busy thinking about those insecurities and inferior things. I am thinking about how if I do not work perfectly at the internship, how if my boss get mad, how if I cannot dress up properly, how if I should wear make up while working (ugh), how people look at me, and blah blah. That's way I'm not so ready to apply my resume and portofolio yet. (a big insecurity, block the pathway)

Well time flies, by the way I earn something. Something big, something I never imagine. I earn so many friends recently. For some people, make a friends are just a little thing, but for me make a friend with people is not an easy thing. And it probably because I could make a greatful, accepting my self, and be better.