However, You Are Still Stunning

Jogja nowadays is awesome, I sarcasm. Tugu become more crowded. A lot cafe, mega malls, hotels and kind of that place built. People looks happy to spend their holiday here, but I sometimes dont like with it. When holiday season come, car increase a lot and everywhere getting stuck. Ewh. However, Jogja would always be a wonderful place to live. A good and tasty food, low cost of living, how the social life works, and if you want to go from a place to other place you dont have to spend much time. Oiya, lately Jogja is fully full filled with many cultural events. I really like and appreciate it by attending the events. And seems like people like it too, selaluuuu penuuuuh and desek-desekan. Few days ago, me and mas Hendra attended Bedog Art Fest. That's my third time attend the event. Still awesome and dazzling me. It's a contemporary dance performances. I dont really understand with the motions of it's dance, but I was impressed with the background of that place. River and a looooot candles, looks like firefly.

A Goodbye

I never know how it feels to be left and when it became forever. A death, mortality. Sounds horrific and tragic. Few days ago a brother, a friend, a person who is so kind hearted, funny, and humble left us forever. He leaving us without a goodbye, he passed away. And now I know how it feels. It deeply hurts, so heartbreaking. I may not that close with him, even we have not much memories together. But it quite make me feel so sad and shed my tears. He is a good person, everybody love him. Fotkom are mourning. We lost him, we will truly miss his presence, his jokes, his laugh. All the human on this earth at eventually will die. It could be wherever and whenever. We all actually are living for waiting our turn. Rest in peace, dek rooni. You wont be forgotten.

Flowers

Buka bersama adalah rutinitas banget tiap tahun di bulan puasa. Sama temen waktu sd, temen waktu smp, temen waktu sma and college friends, sebenernya konsepnya kayak reunian gitu. Tapi ngga reunian juga sih, soalnya beberapa masih sering banget ketemu. Tahun ini agak merasa excited karena 2 tahun belakangan ngga pernah ikut buka bersama, tahun lalu karena hampir sebulan liburan dan bekerja (I actually helped my dad). Penasaran sama muka-mukanya. Jadi tahun ini disempetin buat mendengarkan adzan maghrib sama-sama mereka (paan). Kalo ketemu ya gitu, ngobrol ngga jelas, ngakak-ngakak. Ngobrolin masa lalu, ejek-ejekan, dan tentang percintaan waktu sekolah. Hahahaha. Kemarin sore waktu buka puasa sama temen smp mmm beberapa ngga berubah. Masih kayak dulu, atau pandanganku tentang mereka dari dulu sampai sekarang tidak berubah walaupun sebenernya mereka keliatan berubah. Entahlah.. Sebenernya hanya itu-itu saja yang datang tiap tahunnya, aku liat foto buka puasa smp tahun lalu. Dan kemudian di tahun ini mereka yang datang tahun lalu ngga dateng. Kemudian meremen pada obrolan tentang beberapa orang teman sekelasku dulu yang sudah menikah. Yes, nikah. Dua puluh tahun, 2014, eranya para jomblo dan sudah menikah. Bahkan punya anak. Gila. Ngga pernah kebayang buat membangun hubungan seserius menikah di umur 20 tahun. Kenapa ya? Ya menurutku 20 tahun terlalu muda buat punya suami dan anak, dan disibukkan bayar telfon listrik air masak berdaster dan ya kind of wifely-things. Aneh liatnya. Menurutku 20 tahun itu ya 20 tahun. Melakukan hal-hal yang kayak dilakuin sama anak-anak 20 tahun kebanyakan. Atau aku yang selalu berpikiran naif tentang kehidupan ya. Ah tapi being naive nowadays masih dibutuhkan lah. Although I'm not that naive and being hypocrite instead at some points. God, 20 tahun buat beberapa orang (termasuk aku) adalah masa-masa bingung. Bingung kenapa? Ngga tau, pokoknya bingung aja. Kalo aku sih 20 tahun itu, jalan-jalan. Kemana aja, sama siapa aja, ngga repot mikir tanggung jawab (hehe). Liat pemandangan, liat sunset, kemah, selfie, becandaan, foto-foto, nonton film and many other thing. Kalo aku, 20 tahun liat bunga bunga aja. Terus jalan-jalan sama pacar and taking selfie photos with bestfriends.

A 21 Hours Vacation

It's a 21 hours of vacation! Jogja-Kediri-Jogja, less than a day. We went to Kediri for social service actually, delivering some donations. But for me it was a social service and escape, mmm. Eh we found a  building that is look like Arc de Triomphe in France. Ahahahahahaha!

Nothing

Being inferior is really irritating me. Yea, that's my whole life problem. I'm not good at being nice. It's really hard for me to make a friend... I'm more kind of person who like walking through the coridor with earphones plugged on my ears and looked down along the way and being cool and wishing that coridor is empty. So I don't have to say hi to anyone. Okay, I now decided to choose adv as my concentration. I do love it, but I have no friends at class. I hate being early and should waiting the lecturer come and have no one to talk while waiting and just playing flappy bird. Mmm the main problem is because of me. They actually tried to say hi and make a topic or at least asked me about little thing. But it's me again that could not respon it well. And always going fail then end up with nothing, like this conversation was already done since my first respon. Yes, it's me again who never tried to make any conversation being that exciting. No wonder, I have no friends to share.  Maybe they realized how pathetic tried to talk to me. My second problem is I always feel guilt at anything I had done. Like overthinking of something and would worrying it all the time of my life. When that guilt moments randomly come into my brain, I could suddenly being weird. Honestly, it's very very very annoying. I don't even know why this could happened to me. Third is I'm the most quick-tempered kind of person in this world. And irritability. And yeah that's why I have less friends. They not enjoy being around me. I make my friendship-life going worse. I have no idea why I write it... I verily need a talk with human. Not a laptop or cellphone. *so sad*